Its official, Lover and I have tied the knot. I couldn’t be more in love and happy. I’m giddy like a teenager, and more than 4 years in he still makes my heart jump when he smiles at me. All my life I have wondered what it felt like to be loved by someone who […]
Tag: Recovery
An ode to Future Islands
Most of my life, I’ve lied through my teeth when people ask me if I’m okay. Yep, I’m good. I got it. I’m fine. But really, I wasn’t okay and I couldnt admit it to myself because I was living from crisis to crisis and people depended on me so therefore I must take on […]
Social Isolation
In the past, I would have taken the term social distancing or isolation and thought about those parties I’ve been to where I dont know anyone and dont talk to anyone, just wandering around looking for the person that brought me and feeling incredibly awkward. Now, its socially acceptable introverting. It’s now ok to stay […]
Toilet paper, anyone?
It sneaked up on me, the apocalypse. I’ve been watching the virus since December, when I started reading about a mysterious virus in Wuhan that was spreading fast. I watched the numbers nearly double each day, and I worried. But China is a long ways away from Minnesota and the government there shut things down, […]
Positive Intentions
I’ve been working with an ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) sponsor for a couple months now, and shes given me some daily activities to do. 1. 5 minute breathing exercise: breathe in through the nose for the count of 3 then out for the count of 6. 2. 5 minutes prayer: she suggested a combination […]
Spilled milk
In my ACA journey, I’ve been realizing how hard I am on myself. I thought I just wasnt living up to basic expectations but in reality I’m just not perfect and I expect myself to be, then fly off the handle at the thought of being criticized. Its impossible to live up to my own […]
An ode to Jill Scott
I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus with the writing. I’ll admit, I wasnt being super positive either. I want to do a separate post on court adventures so I wont get into that right now but it was brutal and I’m recovering. No better way to recover from some abysmal gloom like that […]
On being happy
We were reading the al anon daily reflection book Hope For Today, and today the reflection spoke of a woman who was happily married, with a good job and not used to being happy (sound familiar?). She spoke of lying awake at night, worrying her car would break down, etc etc, and how the only […]
Gopher State
I’m currently a resident of a state whose chosen to be known as, the gopher state. I’d like to know who thought the gopher should be the state animal. Not the majestic timber wolf, or some pretty bird or a moose. A flipping gopher. I don’t have anything against gophers, really. Personally I’ve only seen […]
Let it begin with me
“When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA and AlAnon always to be there. And let it begin with me.” I dont think the meaning of this was intended to apply to a car break in, but that’s what I’m going with today. Although I’m using the term “break in” […]