An ode to Future Islands

Most of my life, I’ve lied through my teeth when people ask me if I’m okay. Yep, I’m good. I got it. I’m fine. But really, I wasn’t okay and I couldnt admit it to myself because I was living from crisis to crisis and people depended on me so therefore I must take on […]

Social Isolation

In the past, I would have taken the term social distancing or isolation and thought about those parties I’ve been to where I dont know anyone and dont talk to anyone, just wandering around looking for the person that brought me and feeling incredibly awkward. Now, its socially acceptable introverting. It’s now ok to stay […]

Toilet paper, anyone?

It sneaked up on me, the apocalypse. I’ve been watching the virus since December, when I started reading about a mysterious virus in Wuhan that was spreading fast. I watched the numbers nearly double each day, and I worried. But China is a long ways away from Minnesota and the government there shut things down, […]

On Elephants

I’ve discovered I really like elephants over the last few years. I really like my elephant lamp (see really old post that I am too lazy to link to) and I have a bracelet and was thinking about elephants today while shopping deals on Amazon. It got me thinking about the animal itself just now. […]

On being happy

We were reading the al anon daily reflection book Hope For Today, and today the reflection spoke of a woman who was happily married, with a good job and not used to being happy (sound familiar?). She spoke of lying awake at night, worrying her car would break down, etc etc, and how the only […]

Gopher State

I’m currently a resident of a state whose chosen to be known as, the gopher state. I’d like to know who thought the gopher should be the state animal. Not the majestic timber wolf, or some pretty bird or a moose. A flipping gopher. I don’t have anything against gophers, really. Personally I’ve only seen […]

Let it begin with me

“When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA and AlAnon always to be there. And let it begin with me.” I dont think the meaning of this was intended to apply to a car break in, but that’s what I’m going with today. Although I’m using the term “break in” […]

Lost and Distracted

At this exact moment, I’m feeling hollow, slightly headachy, and my eyes are burning. There is pain in my chest, and a deep, deep sadness. No, Lover and I did not break up. But we are fighting. Fighting a lot. It seems that we cannot disagree on anything without one of us getting hurt by […]

Nailed it

When your 3 year old asks for a pig cake (yes a pig cake…no fuckkng idea where she got that from but very clearly and definitely a pig cake) you make a pig cake. So I found this on pinterest. Looks legit. I can probably do this. Lover is ALL about it, hes gonna help […]