Woke up early today, and there was a beautiful sunrise. I love starting the day that way. It’s the last day of September, and fall in Minnesota is gorgeous. I guess the leaves arent as brilliant as they normally are, due to draught conditions but brilliant nonetheless. Life feels good today. The day is a […]
The Wedding
Its official, Lover and I have tied the knot. I couldn’t be more in love and happy. I’m giddy like a teenager, and more than 4 years in he still makes my heart jump when he smiles at me. All my life I have wondered what it felt like to be loved by someone who […]
It’s been awhile…
Very sad that I realized that it’s been more than 6 months since my last post. Some updates for you… Lover and I had covid. We survived. I’d had round one of the vaccine before I got it, which I attribute to having a less severe case than Lover. He made it through, I made […]
Today
This has been the week from hell. The kind of week where you should get a fucking parade for getting out of bed and going on. My girls. They are beautiful and amazing and I love them more than words. My Lover. He is so supportive and still gives even when he is struggling. My […]
An ode to Future Islands
Most of my life, I’ve lied through my teeth when people ask me if I’m okay. Yep, I’m good. I got it. I’m fine. But really, I wasn’t okay and I couldnt admit it to myself because I was living from crisis to crisis and people depended on me so therefore I must take on […]
Horrifying
I am so angry and horrified at the murder of George Floyd. I could only stomach a small amount of the video, and I cannot imagine how people of color feel about it. I dont feel qualified to speculate, not being of color myself. I do know what it feels like, to not be heard, […]
Social Isolation
In the past, I would have taken the term social distancing or isolation and thought about those parties I’ve been to where I dont know anyone and dont talk to anyone, just wandering around looking for the person that brought me and feeling incredibly awkward. Now, its socially acceptable introverting. It’s now ok to stay […]
Toilet paper, anyone?
It sneaked up on me, the apocalypse. I’ve been watching the virus since December, when I started reading about a mysterious virus in Wuhan that was spreading fast. I watched the numbers nearly double each day, and I worried. But China is a long ways away from Minnesota and the government there shut things down, […]
Positive Intentions
I’ve been working with an ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) sponsor for a couple months now, and shes given me some daily activities to do. 1. 5 minute breathing exercise: breathe in through the nose for the count of 3 then out for the count of 6. 2. 5 minutes prayer: she suggested a combination […]
Spilled milk
In my ACA journey, I’ve been realizing how hard I am on myself. I thought I just wasnt living up to basic expectations but in reality I’m just not perfect and I expect myself to be, then fly off the handle at the thought of being criticized. Its impossible to live up to my own […]
