Most of my life, I’ve lied through my teeth when people ask me if I’m okay. Yep, I’m good. I got it. I’m fine. But really, I wasn’t okay and I couldnt admit it to myself because I was living from crisis to crisis and people depended on me so therefore I must take on […]
Category: Divorce
When things are bad
They can always get worse. 1. My friends. They are wonderful caring people who open their arms and homes and phone calls to me 2. The programs of AA and Al Anon. Without those I’d be dead and lost. 3. Coffee 4. A good job. A great job actually. 5. My beautiful funny amazing girls […]
Struggles
Parenting struggles tonight, guys. It’s real. When your kid tells you they’d be happy if their sibling died it’s hard to hear or understand. I mean, they play together? They are all fun and cute and sometimes fight but something is very wrong for A to feel like that. Fast forward through to bedtime. I […]
Little plans and designs
I enrolled my daughter A in dance at the beginning of the school year. She says she loves it, and it is so fun to see her 6 year old cuteness doing the ballet and tap in practice. My ex husband had no interest- he would not contribute in funds or time, which made it […]
Musings while in line at the car wash
In Minnesota, any day above freezing there are lines at every car wash in town, as everyone races to wash all the salt and dirt from their vehicles before it freezes again. It’s like a gas rush, but with the car wash. I’ve got three sleeping children in my car, listening to Yours by Now […]
The year in review
Best described by the music I lived in… January One word…Phantogram. I must have listened to Cruel World and When I’m Small 3x a day at least. I was gearing up for leaving my ex, and these were the emotional songs to do it. Electric Love from Borns just came out and I wanted a […]
December 28thÂ
So it occurred to me, as I was speaking of my day on the phone a little while ago that I was being pretty negative about a day that wasn’t really so bad. I thought, I need to do some more positivity. So here we are! Lynn is being positive again. 1. Therapy appointment for […]
On inventory
Fears are a big theme here… I’ve had two major anxiety episodes in the last week over things that were, well…nothing to get excited about. I think about the time I spent crying and thinking of all the worst case scenarios, and what was the result? God had it handled already. I have a big […]
Unprepared
I constantly tell people what a disaster I am. “I can’t get out the door on time! I’ll never remember to bring snow pants for both kids every day! I’m a disaster! I burned the cookies. I’m a disaster. I spilled (insert liquid or edible here) all over myself. I’m a disaster!” Then, my friends […]
Thankful
It’s rare I’m feeling gratitude while standing in 7degree windchill while filling a tire that repeatedly goes low. But there I was this morning, freezing my fingers off while I filled my tire with air using a contraption that a very thoughtful Lover loaned to me a while ago so I didn’t need to keep […]
Positivity 