Today has been a lovely day, the first thanksgiving with Lover as a married couple. Just us two, and so much to be thankful for. Food and shelter. I am so thankful for a warm house, clean clothes and food to eat. My children, they are the apple of my eye and my life is […]
Category: Al-Anon
Toilet paper, anyone?
It sneaked up on me, the apocalypse. I’ve been watching the virus since December, when I started reading about a mysterious virus in Wuhan that was spreading fast. I watched the numbers nearly double each day, and I worried. But China is a long ways away from Minnesota and the government there shut things down, […]
Positive Intentions
I’ve been working with an ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) sponsor for a couple months now, and shes given me some daily activities to do. 1. 5 minute breathing exercise: breathe in through the nose for the count of 3 then out for the count of 6. 2. 5 minutes prayer: she suggested a combination […]
Spilled milk
In my ACA journey, I’ve been realizing how hard I am on myself. I thought I just wasnt living up to basic expectations but in reality I’m just not perfect and I expect myself to be, then fly off the handle at the thought of being criticized. Its impossible to live up to my own […]
An ode to Jill Scott
I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus with the writing. I’ll admit, I wasnt being super positive either. I want to do a separate post on court adventures so I wont get into that right now but it was brutal and I’m recovering. No better way to recover from some abysmal gloom like that […]
On being happy
We were reading the al anon daily reflection book Hope For Today, and today the reflection spoke of a woman who was happily married, with a good job and not used to being happy (sound familiar?). She spoke of lying awake at night, worrying her car would break down, etc etc, and how the only […]
Gopher State
I’m currently a resident of a state whose chosen to be known as, the gopher state. I’d like to know who thought the gopher should be the state animal. Not the majestic timber wolf, or some pretty bird or a moose. A flipping gopher. I don’t have anything against gophers, really. Personally I’ve only seen […]
Let it begin with me
“When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA and AlAnon always to be there. And let it begin with me.” I dont think the meaning of this was intended to apply to a car break in, but that’s what I’m going with today. Although I’m using the term “break in” […]
Lost and Distracted
At this exact moment, I’m feeling hollow, slightly headachy, and my eyes are burning. There is pain in my chest, and a deep, deep sadness. No, Lover and I did not break up. But we are fighting. Fighting a lot. It seems that we cannot disagree on anything without one of us getting hurt by […]
On disappointment
It’s been nearly a year since I quit smoking. The anxiety attacks have lessened, and even when I crave a cigarette the appeal isnt what it was. Also I’ve been saving the mon-ay. Enough to get Lover and I out on a little weekend trip to Flawridaw. I was so ready to get out of […]