Most of my life, I’ve lied through my teeth when people ask me if I’m okay. Yep, I’m good. I got it. I’m fine. But really, I wasn’t okay and I couldnt admit it to myself because I was living from crisis to crisis and people depended on me so therefore I must take on […]
Category: Love
Toilet paper, anyone?
It sneaked up on me, the apocalypse. I’ve been watching the virus since December, when I started reading about a mysterious virus in Wuhan that was spreading fast. I watched the numbers nearly double each day, and I worried. But China is a long ways away from Minnesota and the government there shut things down, […]
Positive Intentions
I’ve been working with an ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) sponsor for a couple months now, and shes given me some daily activities to do. 1. 5 minute breathing exercise: breathe in through the nose for the count of 3 then out for the count of 6. 2. 5 minutes prayer: she suggested a combination […]
Spilled milk
In my ACA journey, I’ve been realizing how hard I am on myself. I thought I just wasnt living up to basic expectations but in reality I’m just not perfect and I expect myself to be, then fly off the handle at the thought of being criticized. Its impossible to live up to my own […]
The best
So some very very happy news! Lover proposed! I’m insanely excited and happy. It was a complete surprise. š
On Elephants
I’ve discovered I really like elephants over the last few years. I really like my elephant lamp (see really old post that I am too lazy to link to) and I have a bracelet and was thinking about elephants today while shopping deals on Amazon. It got me thinking about the animal itself just now. […]
An ode to Jill Scott
I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus with the writing. I’ll admit, I wasnt being super positive either. I want to do a separate post on court adventures so I wont get into that right now but it was brutal and I’m recovering. No better way to recover from some abysmal gloom like that […]
On being happy
We were reading the al anon daily reflection book Hope For Today, and today the reflection spoke of a woman who was happily married, with a good job and not used to being happy (sound familiar?). She spoke of lying awake at night, worrying her car would break down, etc etc, and how the only […]
Let it begin with me
“When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA and AlAnon always to be there. And let it begin with me.” I dont think the meaning of this was intended to apply to a car break in, but that’s what I’m going with today. Although I’m using the term “break in” […]
Lost and Distracted
At this exact moment, Iām feeling hollow, slightly headachy, and my eyes are burning. There is pain in my chest, and a deep, deep sadness. No, Lover and I did not break up. But we are fighting. Fighting a lot. It seems that we cannot disagree on anything without one of us getting hurt by […]
