When things are bad

They can always get worse. 1. My friends. They are wonderful caring people who open their arms and homes and phone calls to me 2. The programs of AA and Al Anon. Without those I’d be dead and lost. 3. Coffee 4. A good job. A great job actually. 5. My beautiful funny amazing girls […]

Struggles

Parenting struggles tonight, guys. It’s real. When your kid tells you they’d be happy if their sibling died it’s hard to hear or understand. I mean, they play together? They are all fun and cute and sometimes fight but something is very wrong for A to feel like that. Fast forward through to bedtime. I […]

Crankypants

Some serious shits gone down since last we spoke. Lover and I made the move happen…we are now in a new apartment. At the time, that caused me an unbelievable amount of stress. I was also feeling alot of old emotional pain…old. Maybe childhood, I dont know. Then we went to Oregon. It was amazing. […]

The Unexpected

Plot twist – my lovely little apartment that Lover and I have made a home with our children has been found covered in mold and we have to move out. So that’s exciting. We have just a couple weeks to find a new place and move all the stuff out. Which stressed me out to […]

Learning

I have been swallowed by life it seems. The past month has been a blur of my new job plus making the most of my time with children and Lover, but I havent made much time for friends or music. This disappoints me. I gave up kickball this season too. It just felt like another […]

Changes, or, Meditation

Or both. Last week I started a new job, one that I hope will bring new opportunities. Also, since we last spoke I went camping with Lover + kids, to a sober music festival, watched a meteor shower from inside a hatchback in a cornfield, went boating, started regularly attending a womens meeting, and baked […]

Camping

Yep. Nobody puts J in a corner, except, you know…J. We had a ton of fun though. The girls were great, really well behaved and we stayed busy the whole time. Even relaxing seemed like we did alot, coloring and fires and marshmallows. I gained 4 pounds. And that’s with constant activity. Let’s get some […]