Changes, or, Meditation

Or both. Last week I started a new job, one that I hope will bring new opportunities. Also, since we last spoke I went camping with Lover + kids, to a sober music festival, watched a meteor shower from inside a hatchback in a cornfield, went boating, started regularly attending a womens meeting, and baked […]

Camping

Yep. Nobody puts J in a corner, except, you know…J. We had a ton of fun though. The girls were great, really well behaved and we stayed busy the whole time. Even relaxing seemed like we did alot, coloring and fires and marshmallows. I gained 4 pounds. And that’s with constant activity. Let’s get some […]

Little plans and designs

I enrolled my daughter A in dance at the beginning of the school year. She says she loves it, and it is so fun to see her 6 year old cuteness doing the ballet and tap in practice. My ex husband had no interest- he would not contribute in funds or time, which made it […]

6/15/18

Friiiiiday! I’m kinda in a funk though. Woke up so happy to be alive and then reality bitch slapped my face that I was late for work to a job I’m resentful towards, as well as making the ex late for work because I was late dropping J off with him. My time management in […]

Math

Just thought I’d share with you all, that after blood, sweat, and tears I have completed my math course. So many tears. But I got an A! Thanks to Lover’s love, support and tutoring skills I learned things, and came out the other side. I may actually enjoy math too. If you havent followed along, […]

Day 61

Today is my 61st day without a cigarette. I’m still getting urges here and there, but it’s not so bad. I see smokers now, and think with surprise oh hey, I used to do that! I’ve been playing alot of chess lately. I’ve beaten a few online opponents on the app I’m using. I’ve mostly […]

Abundance

I’m sitting in a room, listening to a motivational speaker talking about resilience mindsets. She asks us to close our eyes, and envision our perfect day. I put aside my math homework (because let’s be honest, I wasn’t paying attention for the first hour and a half) and close my eyes. My perfect day…I’ve had […]