Crankypants

Some serious shits gone down since last we spoke. Lover and I made the move happen…we are now in a new apartment. At the time, that caused me an unbelievable amount of stress. I was also feeling alot of old emotional pain…old. Maybe childhood, I dont know. Then we went to Oregon. It was amazing. […]

The Unexpected

Plot twist – my lovely little apartment that Lover and I have made a home with our children has been found covered in mold and we have to move out. So that’s exciting. We have just a couple weeks to find a new place and move all the stuff out. Which stressed me out to […]

Learning

I have been swallowed by life it seems. The past month has been a blur of my new job plus making the most of my time with children and Lover, but I havent made much time for friends or music. This disappoints me. I gave up kickball this season too. It just felt like another […]

Changes, or, Meditation

Or both. Last week I started a new job, one that I hope will bring new opportunities. Also, since we last spoke I went camping with Lover + kids, to a sober music festival, watched a meteor shower from inside a hatchback in a cornfield, went boating, started regularly attending a womens meeting, and baked […]

Camping

Yep. Nobody puts J in a corner, except, you know…J. We had a ton of fun though. The girls were great, really well behaved and we stayed busy the whole time. Even relaxing seemed like we did alot, coloring and fires and marshmallows. I gained 4 pounds. And that’s with constant activity. Let’s get some […]

Little plans and designs

I enrolled my daughter A in dance at the beginning of the school year. She says she loves it, and it is so fun to see her 6 year old cuteness doing the ballet and tap in practice. My ex husband had no interest- he would not contribute in funds or time, which made it […]

Day 61

Today is my 61st day without a cigarette. I’m still getting urges here and there, but it’s not so bad. I see smokers now, and think with surprise oh hey, I used to do that! I’ve been playing alot of chess lately. I’ve beaten a few online opponents on the app I’m using. I’ve mostly […]

Abundance

I’m sitting in a room, listening to a motivational speaker talking about resilience mindsets. She asks us to close our eyes, and envision our perfect day. I put aside my math homework (because let’s be honest, I wasn’t paying attention for the first hour and a half) and close my eyes. My perfect day…I’ve had […]

Musings while in line at the car wash

In Minnesota, any day above freezing there are lines at every car wash in town, as everyone races to wash all the salt and dirt from their vehicles before it freezes again. It’s like a gas rush, but with the car wash. I’ve got three sleeping children in my car, listening to Yours by Now […]