Crankypants

Some serious shits gone down since last we spoke. Lover and I made the move happen…we are now in a new apartment. At the time, that caused me an unbelievable amount of stress. I was also feeling alot of old emotional pain…old. Maybe childhood, I dont know. Then we went to Oregon. It was amazing. […]

The Unexpected

Plot twist – my lovely little apartment that Lover and I have made a home with our children has been found covered in mold and we have to move out. So that’s exciting. We have just a couple weeks to find a new place and move all the stuff out. Which stressed me out to […]

Learning

I have been swallowed by life it seems. The past month has been a blur of my new job plus making the most of my time with children and Lover, but I havent made much time for friends or music. This disappoints me. I gave up kickball this season too. It just felt like another […]

Little plans and designs

I enrolled my daughter A in dance at the beginning of the school year. She says she loves it, and it is so fun to see her 6 year old cuteness doing the ballet and tap in practice. My ex husband had no interest- he would not contribute in funds or time, which made it […]

6/15/18

Friiiiiday! I’m kinda in a funk though. Woke up so happy to be alive and then reality bitch slapped my face that I was late for work to a job I’m resentful towards, as well as making the ex late for work because I was late dropping J off with him. My time management in […]

Math

Just thought I’d share with you all, that after blood, sweat, and tears I have completed my math course. So many tears. But I got an A! Thanks to Lover’s love, support and tutoring skills I learned things, and came out the other side. I may actually enjoy math too. If you havent followed along, […]

Appreciation

Lately we’ve been listening to a meditation entitled “abundance”. I don’t recall much about it, as it plays while we’re falling asleep but I have it on the brain today. So full. My life is abundant. Yesterday I studied math in the sunshine, went for a run, studied in the sun while Lover grilled a […]

Day 61

Today is my 61st day without a cigarette. I’m still getting urges here and there, but it’s not so bad. I see smokers now, and think with surprise oh hey, I used to do that! I’ve been playing alot of chess lately. I’ve beaten a few online opponents on the app I’m using. I’ve mostly […]

Abundance

I’m sitting in a room, listening to a motivational speaker talking about resilience mindsets. She asks us to close our eyes, and envision our perfect day. I put aside my math homework (because let’s be honest, I wasn’t paying attention for the first hour and a half) and close my eyes. My perfect day…I’ve had […]