I’m sitting in a room, listening to a motivational speaker talking about resilience mindsets. She asks us to close our eyes, and envision our perfect day. I put aside my math homework (because let’s be honest, I wasn’t paying attention for the first hour and a half) and close my eyes. My perfect day…I’ve had […]
Tag: AA
The daily
Tonight, my cat jumped to bat the chain for the door lock (5 feet high!) And while doing so, flipped the light switch off. This might be the most interesting thing that’s happened all day. Upon my return to normal life after the vacation 5 weeks ago, Lover and I both got sick with some […]
VDay
I am so blessed and happy at this point in my life. Today has barely started but is already so full. Lover and I are on our way back to Mn from Hawai’i- a harsh cold and reality of daily life await but strangely I’m not sad. I love Hawai’i. It’s a place I could […]
Ohana
One of the things I remember most about the movie Lilo and Stitch is them talking about ohana…which means family. I found myself tonight at an AA meeting on the big island of Hawai’i by this name. (Yes, there is a good reason I haven’t posted much haha). Lover and I met some wonderful people […]
Musings while in line at the car wash
In Minnesota, any day above freezing there are lines at every car wash in town, as everyone races to wash all the salt and dirt from their vehicles before it freezes again. It’s like a gas rush, but with the car wash. I’ve got three sleeping children in my car, listening to Yours by Now […]
Jan 11
Today wasn’t great. Actually, that’s an understatement. I don’t want to sit in misery, so here comes some positivity at ya! 1. I was (slightly) early to work today 2. I was provided a lovely breakfast by Lover, scrambled eggs with spinach, green peppers, mushrooms and toast. I wasn’t able to finish it, but it […]
The year in review
Best described by the music I lived in… January One word…Phantogram. I must have listened to Cruel World and When I’m Small 3x a day at least. I was gearing up for leaving my ex, and these were the emotional songs to do it. Electric Love from Borns just came out and I wanted a […]
December 28th
So it occurred to me, as I was speaking of my day on the phone a little while ago that I was being pretty negative about a day that wasn’t really so bad. I thought, I need to do some more positivity. So here we are! Lynn is being positive again. 1. Therapy appointment for […]
On inventory
Fears are a big theme here… I’ve had two major anxiety episodes in the last week over things that were, well…nothing to get excited about. I think about the time I spent crying and thinking of all the worst case scenarios, and what was the result? God had it handled already. I have a big […]
Little fears
How many things am I afraid of? I’m sad to say…a lot. I’m afraid of being late to work, even though it happens a lot. I’m afraid of not making ends meet. I’m terrified of a math class I signed up for in spring semester. Im afraid of being hurt in my relationship. I don’t […]