Day 102

Homemade pizza. Dare I say, all things wonderful come to mind? Paired with Stranger Things 2, a warm cat, and snuggly Lover, and all is set for an amazing cold November evening.

I use a recipe for crust coming from Bette Hageman’s cookbook, The Gluten Free Gourmet Bakes Bread. I have no permissions to post that recipe, but you can get it if you choose by buying her book. 

I also make mine amazing by brushing the crust after par baking with olive oil infused with garlic, Italian seasoning and some salt. It gives it that extra crunch and sooo good. Tonight, since my dairy eating Lover is over, I made two crusts, one which will have fresh mozzarella and the other with Daiya mozzarella. Toppings include diced green pepper, onion, mushrooms, garlic, pepperoni. I’m so stoked. Almost as much as I am to watch Stranger Things. 

First we par bake the dough

Then we add the toppings

Then we bake it

Omg. So. Amazing. 

1. Woke up in my favorite way. Slept in. Had an amazing breakfast of egg scramble with oatmeal that had cranberry sauce mixed in.

2. A long hot shower. So lovely. Apartment living has it’s benefits. There is unending hot water. 

3. Dance lessons. I am now learning ballroom dancing. Learned the foxtrot, the ballero (?), the hustle and a few steps on west coast swing. It was so fun! Practicing at home after as well. I’m really into it. Lover and I are working out more lessons.

4. Dessert. Still working on finishing off that lovely dessert A and I made. 

5. Snuggles and Stranger Things. Plus daylight savings made it seem to me like I got to stay up later. That’s a huge plus.

Also, got a refresher on Sandy B. on one of the car rides. I forgot how good he is. I’m hoping I can listen to more of it soon. Those are available from the Gopher State tape library…and possibly from other AA sources but I know for sure Gopher State. It’s worth a listen. 

Day 101

November…cold…cloudy…cold…

I like how November brings things I love. Like Thanksgiving. (Food) Christmas cookie baking after thanksgiving. (More food) Inevitable weight gain from all the food. (An extra layer of warmth from the food? A girl has to stay warm)

Today I did some online grocery shopping, and started buying some of the essentials I will need when I start making cookies. I freaking looove making Christmas cookies. I make all of them to my dietary standards, then give them out to my similarly restricted friends. The feeling I get when I can give delicious cookies to people who would ordinarily not get to eat them because of the ingredients is phenomenal. This year, I made a new vegan friend, and it has me thinking…how much would it change things to remove eggs from the cookies? Or at least, some of them. My goal for the next week or two is to try out a new recipe or two that is eggless, in hopes I can bring holiday cheer to the vegan in my life.

So, apparently A was thinking the same thoughts I was, and asked if we could bake tonight after I picked her up from daycare. Well, of course kid. So I ask her what she wants to make. Cookies? Brownies? Cake? She asks for chocolate and vanilla and cherries. Huh. Ok. So then we start brainstorming. Can we make brownie layers with cherries in the middle? No, she says. Vanilla layer, then chocolate then cherry. 

At first I thought about vanilla cake on top of a brownie layer, but then I got to thinking…what if there is such a thing as vanilla brownies? Googled. They exist. Damn! I had NO idea. So I grabbed a recipe for them, and layered it up with a brownie recipe, slapped some cherry pie filling on top.

Omg.

I don’t even know what to call this. I don’t know if it’s been done before. Neapolitan brownies? Maybe?

So effing good. A thought it needed whipped cream on top. I think she’s correct, but I don’t have any right now. If there are any left tomorrow I’m going to make that happen. No question. That’s my kid. I couldn’t be more proud.

Vanilla layer:

2/3 c rice flour

1/4 tsp xanthan gum

3/4 tsp baking powder 

1/4 tsp salt

1/4 c earth balance

1/3 c white sugar

1/3 c brown sugar

1 tsp vanilla

1 egg

Mixed, spread in 13×9 pan, greased.

Chocolate layer

2oz bakers chocolate 

1/4 c earth balance, melted with the chocolate in the microwave (because that’s how I roll)

1 c white sugar

1 egg plus 1 egg white

1tsp vanilla

1/2 c rice flour (I use Flying Horse brand. It’s so fine it’s like powdered sugar)

1/4 tsp xanthan gum

Dash salt.

I layered this on top of the vanilla layer, baked at 350f for 30 minutes. I feel like it needed an extra 5 though, because it was a tad undertone in the middle, but as you wish. Cooled, then slapped the can of cherry pie filling on top. Next time I might whip the pie filling in with some coconut whipped cream. 

Day 52

I missed yesterday, which is sad because I had a pretty good day. Today, I’ve been sick with body aches and fever again so it’s been kind of a blur of herbal teas and hiding under the blanket on the couch with the kitten snuggling. Not too bad when you’re sick.

I got a keyboard yesterday to practice my piano playing. I was so excited about that (and possibly) some other things I was told I was glowing at the meeting. I practiced twice on it, albeit for short increments. I’m hoping I can practice more tonight. Chords are difficult for me, and my fingers are used to typing so they move off their designated keys when I’m not paying attention. Practice will help if I keep on it.

We covered the tenth step at the meeting last night. That would be “continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.” 

This is intended to be done on a daily basis, reviewing at night to see where we were selfish, dishonest, fearful, or generally an asshole. (My words) 

I am not good at this. Doing anything on a daily basis is hard for me, with the exception of the medication I take so I don’t pass out every time I stand up. Aaand there’s the excuse. When I don’t do this, stuff builds up and I’m contacting my sponsor to do another step 4 and 5 on a yearly basis. Not good. 

The reason I bring this up, is because I did a couple crappy things yesterday, one at work and the other at dinner after the meeting. I’m not sure how to make those things right. This is where I should seek guidance from my sponsor or another sober alcoholic. Not to make excuses, but I’m so exhausted I can barely function so if I can I will make some phone calls tonight to seek advice on how to rectify my misdeeds.

1. Herbal tea. I got some turmeric ginger tea, and felt better for a bit after drinking some. I feel another cup is in order.

2. Brownies. I’m a sucker for sweets but when I’m sick it seems like I’m more prone to it than I otherwise would be. I made some caramel pecan brownies, gluten and dairy free of course, and think it might have been my best batch of all time. They are perfect.

3. A good book is key when you’re lying around, and I have one to fill the void left from the Wheel of Time. I’m reading War Brides by Helen Bryan. I love historical fiction and this doesn’t disappoint.

4. A walk with the little people. It was really hard to get up but I was talked into it by my adorable huge eyed babies and as much as I’m tired and achy it’s beautiful out. 

5. It’s almost bedtime. Shortly I will bathe the children, and put J to bed while snuggling A, who gets to stay up later. She’s big enough where I feel comfortable falling asleep on the couch while she watches cartoons and it sounds sooo good. I’m almost there!